Today is the day to spend with the people that you love. Today is Christmas and everyone is supposed to be happy, loving and in the spirit of the season. The season that I think has been blown out of proportion.
We are supposed to be celebrating the rise of our savior. Instead, everyone runs around trying to outdo people in gift buying; seeing how much they can put themselves into debt for, all for items that will more than likely be used once or twice and then forgotten in a cupboard somewhere.
Your supposed to be around people that love you and who you love. Laughter over drinks and hugs over good food. Smiles in peoples eyes who you haven't seen in years; this is what it is all about.
This is what I miss. I miss not having someone in my life to share these moments with. The hand holding, hugging, stolen kisses around the corner under the stupid flower hanging from the ceiling.
I may not believe in our savior in the traditional sense, but I do believe in love. Love that has seemed to skip over me in one way or another. Love that never seems to find me.
My own choices may be to blame for this, but they were my choices and I shouldn't be punished forever. Forever is a very long time.
I'm desperate to be happy, crave it actually. Don't understand why it is so difficult to find someone out there who wants to be with me. I don't think that I am that bad of a person.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Pushing my buttons: Overtime!!!
I got up this morning and had an awesome outlook on life. I took a hot shower, sang a little bit, my hair even did what I wanted it to. Went and did some retail therapy and had a very yummy soy carmel latte. I was able to get my dog into the hair groomers without any problems and set up an appointment for 4 p.m.. I don't have much of a life now a days so I thought "What the hell, we will spend all day down south and head home after his hair appointment."
Things in my life are not going the way that I had planned, but it was a nice change to have things go the way that I WANTED THEM too for a change.
I picked up the dog, put his bed in my SUV and headed out. Since moving to Bothell, I have not really been able to find a decent off-leash dog park to take him too, so I thought I would take him to the park in Federal Way and let him run around and get nice and muddy before his hair appointment. They just hate it when I do that, but I would rather have him all nice and muddy before he got his hair cut then after.
When I got there, armed with my latte in one had and the dog in the other, I stashed my BRAND NEW Dolce Gabana purse ( a wonderful purchase on Black Friday) under the front seat, set the alarm and headed out for some fun. I just love to watch Chaz run around having fun. He gets this look on his face like he is actually smiling and it is the most comical thing to watch. He found a couple of dogs that were at least 3 times his size to play with and came out looking like he just went to SLOBBER FEST. It was really gross because he was so excited he had these streamers of drool hanging from the corners of his mouth...Nasty!!
I looked at my phone and saw that there was about an hour to go before his appointment, so I got him some water and told him that we were going to go. I got to the fence and put his walk a bout on him and headed for the truck. I was chatting with another couple on the way out and as I got to my truck, I looked thru the front window and said to myself that the window did not look right.
I walked to the passenger side of my truck and could not believe that someone had smashed the shit out of the fucking window. All I could do was say NO NO NO as I stuck my head in the window and saw that the bed had been moved and my purse was FUCKING GONE! Now, I know that it was stupid of me to leave my purse in the car, but I have done it for years and really didn't think that with as many people parked, coming and going, that there was going to be any issue. Not to mention that I have been going to the same park for years.
There was glass everywhere. I don't know what they used to bust in the window, but SHIT what a big fucking mess. It shattered into a million little pieces all over the front seat of the truck. And of all the times not to have one of those handy little brooms.
So, they got everything. My wallet, all my cards, my work badge and work keys, my beloved BUS PASS, drivers license...everything! HAHA assholes but you didn't get cash, I never carry cash!! I just spent $60 on makeup that I didn't even get to open yet. My day planner with all my appointments; basically, my entire life. The only thing that I am great full they didn't steal was my cell phone and my keys. I have a key pad alarm so all I have to do is punch in the code and it unlocks the front door. Most of the time I just lock my keys in the truck and use the key pad. So, I guess it could have been a lot worse.
The couple that I walked out with noticed that I was just standing there and came over to ask if everything was OK. When the lady saw what happened the first words out of her mouth was "Oh shit, did they get anything?" When I told her that they got my purse, I then said at least they didn't steal my stereo. That would have really pissed me off.
After calling the police, I was standing there talking to a couple of people and this one guy was telling me that in the last 2 weeks, there have been at least 20 cars broken into in the same lot, with the last one happening just last week. He said that the police were saying they think they have a person who sits in the car and watches people. He asked me if I put my purse under the seat after I got there and I told him yes. He said that he thought that the police were in fact correct and that there was probably someone who watched me do it and then waited until everyone was inside. He then went on a rampage about how he couldn't wait until the "fucking bastards tried it again and how he would just love to catch them in the act". Gotta love old men who think they are Chuck Norris.
And to make matters worse, this is a Saturday, and I had plans to go over to my friends house tonight and help her and her family decorate their tree. The shit storm always seems to follow me where ever I go.
So, now I am laying here on my bed, missing my beautiful purse, thinking how much I would love to be out and about enjoying the night air. Man, this really SUCKS.
I woke up thinking positive thoughts and tonight I am slapped with the realization that I HATE (and I don't use this word freely) fucking people who suck off the rest of humanity because you can't get your fucking life together and think that it is easier to steal from people than to get a life. Grow up you fucking assholes and just remember that what comes around goes around and next time it is going to be your shit that gets stolen you FUCKING DICK HEADS!!!! KARMA IS A BITCH WITH A VENGEANCE!!
Things in my life are not going the way that I had planned, but it was a nice change to have things go the way that I WANTED THEM too for a change.
I picked up the dog, put his bed in my SUV and headed out. Since moving to Bothell, I have not really been able to find a decent off-leash dog park to take him too, so I thought I would take him to the park in Federal Way and let him run around and get nice and muddy before his hair appointment. They just hate it when I do that, but I would rather have him all nice and muddy before he got his hair cut then after.
When I got there, armed with my latte in one had and the dog in the other, I stashed my BRAND NEW Dolce Gabana purse ( a wonderful purchase on Black Friday) under the front seat, set the alarm and headed out for some fun. I just love to watch Chaz run around having fun. He gets this look on his face like he is actually smiling and it is the most comical thing to watch. He found a couple of dogs that were at least 3 times his size to play with and came out looking like he just went to SLOBBER FEST. It was really gross because he was so excited he had these streamers of drool hanging from the corners of his mouth...Nasty!!
I looked at my phone and saw that there was about an hour to go before his appointment, so I got him some water and told him that we were going to go. I got to the fence and put his walk a bout on him and headed for the truck. I was chatting with another couple on the way out and as I got to my truck, I looked thru the front window and said to myself that the window did not look right.
I walked to the passenger side of my truck and could not believe that someone had smashed the shit out of the fucking window. All I could do was say NO NO NO as I stuck my head in the window and saw that the bed had been moved and my purse was FUCKING GONE! Now, I know that it was stupid of me to leave my purse in the car, but I have done it for years and really didn't think that with as many people parked, coming and going, that there was going to be any issue. Not to mention that I have been going to the same park for years.
There was glass everywhere. I don't know what they used to bust in the window, but SHIT what a big fucking mess. It shattered into a million little pieces all over the front seat of the truck. And of all the times not to have one of those handy little brooms.
So, they got everything. My wallet, all my cards, my work badge and work keys, my beloved BUS PASS, drivers license...everything! HAHA assholes but you didn't get cash, I never carry cash!! I just spent $60 on makeup that I didn't even get to open yet. My day planner with all my appointments; basically, my entire life. The only thing that I am great full they didn't steal was my cell phone and my keys. I have a key pad alarm so all I have to do is punch in the code and it unlocks the front door. Most of the time I just lock my keys in the truck and use the key pad. So, I guess it could have been a lot worse.
The couple that I walked out with noticed that I was just standing there and came over to ask if everything was OK. When the lady saw what happened the first words out of her mouth was "Oh shit, did they get anything?" When I told her that they got my purse, I then said at least they didn't steal my stereo. That would have really pissed me off.
After calling the police, I was standing there talking to a couple of people and this one guy was telling me that in the last 2 weeks, there have been at least 20 cars broken into in the same lot, with the last one happening just last week. He said that the police were saying they think they have a person who sits in the car and watches people. He asked me if I put my purse under the seat after I got there and I told him yes. He said that he thought that the police were in fact correct and that there was probably someone who watched me do it and then waited until everyone was inside. He then went on a rampage about how he couldn't wait until the "fucking bastards tried it again and how he would just love to catch them in the act". Gotta love old men who think they are Chuck Norris.
And to make matters worse, this is a Saturday, and I had plans to go over to my friends house tonight and help her and her family decorate their tree. The shit storm always seems to follow me where ever I go.
So, now I am laying here on my bed, missing my beautiful purse, thinking how much I would love to be out and about enjoying the night air. Man, this really SUCKS.
I woke up thinking positive thoughts and tonight I am slapped with the realization that I HATE (and I don't use this word freely) fucking people who suck off the rest of humanity because you can't get your fucking life together and think that it is easier to steal from people than to get a life. Grow up you fucking assholes and just remember that what comes around goes around and next time it is going to be your shit that gets stolen you FUCKING DICK HEADS!!!! KARMA IS A BITCH WITH A VENGEANCE!!
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